Because of her...

Those moments when all you want is your best friend back, and the only reason as to why you lost him is because of his new girlfriend. When a boy gives up his world, his everything for that girl. He hurts so many others, and does not even give a care in the world about it. When you go back and think about all the great memories that you had had with all of his other friends and he just puts them in a box in the back of his closet to save for the future to remember what his life was like before her. One day when it is much too late he will realize his mistake, and no one will be willing to let him back into their lives except for me. The moment when you realize that even though your best friend is gone, to start his life without you, you do not want him to be gone. The moments when you need him the most, and when you just want to cry like it is no ones business. Those moments when you drive past his house and you just want him to hold you in his arms and tell you that everything will be okay. When he tells you that the boy does not deserve you when he breaks your heart. I just want the boy that was my best friend back, and I cry each and every day for him. Not a single day goes by as to when I do not get even the littlest thought of him. It sucks when everywhere you go even the littlest thing reminds you of him. Those days when you do get the courage to call him or text him and he does not answer the phone or reply to you. It feels like he just disappeared but you know he did not when you randomly see him in places like walking down the street or at the fireworks, and you want to say hi but do not dare to because she is with him. She hates me for no reason at all. She hates you because you want him to be a part of your life, and because you invited him to your senior prom because you did not have anyone else to go with.

The moments when you just want to give up, and you do just about anything to try to forget him, but nothing helps. No matter how many boys you talk to or try to date. Not even the boys who you try to get to replace him as a best friend. Nothing is ever the same, and you end up pushing away those other guys because they just are not that one special guy. No one compares to you, but I am not good enough to compare to her.