Just another day at work

A puzzle

So the man of my dreams went away today. He's gone for five years, and the only contact that we will have is letters. Maybe this is just a test. A test to show our love to each other; to show our faith in this relationship. I just wish that i knew what this is though, we technically aren't even a couple, but we are falling fast and hard for each other. Maybe this is just telling us that we aren't meant to be together and that we are just two different people who are going down two completely different paths. I don't even know if I should bother waiting for him. I won't see him again or talk to him again until I am twenty four and as of right now I am only nineteen. I know a lot of people will say "hey you're young don't waste all of that time waiting on that one guy. he's not good for you anyway." But the thing is I know that if I do wait that it will be completely worth it. I just don't know if I can trust myself to wait that long. My emotions are all messed up, but I guess I just have to give it some time before I make an actual decision. Sometimes life throws a curve ball at you, and you have no clue how to handle it. My whole life seems to be a curve ball.

Rather smile than shed tears.