Are we ready?

The fact that I'm so completely in love with you is scary. The fact that after all of this time YOU came back to me. The fact that YOU are ready to spend the rest of forever with ME is frightening. Life is frightening. Can anyone say anything different? You never really know when something is going to happen, and you can never really and truly predict the outcome of anything. I love you, and I want to spend the rest of forever with you too, but are we really ready for that? Will anyone ever be truly ready for that? Life is a hard decision, but it's the most wonderful decision. Getting to breathe and smile and feel are the most amazing gifts, and they are even more amazing because I get to do them with you. Does that mean I am ready to spend forever with you? Who really knows? Life is just a giant question that we all just have to find our own answers to.

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Long Forgotten

After trying to get myself back together I feel like I can't. Jon is gone and my boyfriend has left me. A dead friend and a broken heart. How does one cope with such things? Everything happened so fast and yet it didn't. Time seems to be going so fast but in reality its taking forever. I guess it's just one step at a time. I will never truly be healed, and I'll always miss them but the pain will subdue after a while. All that matters is that one day I'll be able to smile again.

Dear You

Dear you, I miss you more than words can ever say. You're all that I think about day and night and I feel like I'll never be able to get over you. Love, me.

Dear you,
It's been almost three weeks since I have last seen you. It'll be a month in 13 days. What do you want me to do? I want to be with you. I love you to no end and you're hurting me. Can you just tell me what you want from me and stop playing games with my mind? I'm so lost and hurt and confused. Won't you fix me and this? Tell me everything that is on your mind. I want you, only you. No one else. I just want it to be you and me forever.
-Me

So much is happening lately and the days have all begun to fell the same. I have fallen in love, and I lost it and now I feel way more than empty. School days seem to mesh together, and I can't seem to shake him from my mind. He has disappeared like a ghost this way before, so I don't understand why it's so much harder for me to let him go this time. I don't have anything that ties me to him besides being in complete love, but I need it to stop. I need to get over it; I need to move on like the adult that I am. Being abandoned by a man is nothing new to me so I'll get over it eventually.